i've been having the worst time focusing lately.
my mental ruts usually don't last longer than an afternoon
so being in one for a few days has me a spiraling a little.
like all i want to do is drink good iced coffee
go on roundabout walks
listen to glen hansard's new music
disappear into my netflix cue
and open all the windows even when it's cold.
i'm in the middle of finals, though,
and it's taking me twice as long
to write anything half as good as my normal standard
and even doing that is like pulling teeth.
i know it's probably just the stress
the accumulation of the stress of the semester
the stress of this particular semester
but understanding isn't really that helpful
when i'm normally not the listless, ennui type
i.e. the type who really wants to spend the day
snacking on frozen grapes + semi sweet chocolate
while wearing over sized pajama pants
and reading bukowski
and not a goddamn other thing.
what do you do when you just can't seem to concentrate?